I can’t wait until Footloose is over no offense to Steven but I really miss talking to him

happy but sad and it’s really conflicting so all I’m feeling right now is empty

and at this moment, the void in my heart is the only thing keeping me sane

it’s so normal now that I don’t even question it or trying to make myself better

it just comes, goes, comes back, leaves, and when it comes knocking again, I willingly let it in

I’m a mess

I may or may not have watched my boyfriend sleep today.

To be honest, I get really sad when I lose followers on anything – Twitter, Instagram, or even Tumblr.

Like I don’t know, am I not friendly enough?? Am I not open-minded about other topics? Should I try harder to be pretty? What did I do that makes you leave??

And it all just makes me sad. Like they say I shouldn’t be worried about followers, because it’s just a number and it’s stupid to follow your follower count.

But me? I don’t have many friends, and watching that number go down… the people that I actually know in person… it makes me sad.

I got in a fight with my mom today about women and their clothing.

Specifically, sport bras.

This is basically what went on this morning:

Mom: Ew, that’s so inappropriate, a girl wearing a sport bra while running.
Me: No, that’s fine. What’s wrong with sports bras?? That’s what those bras are for.

Of course, I’m Asian, and you’re not supposed to argue with your parents. They think we’re “talking back” but no. There’s a difference between talking back and defense. I’m grounded, anyways.

What’s wrong with sports bras?? It’s not inappropriate. It’s not wrong. What a girl wears should not be based on what society thinks is right. If she feels comfortable in it, then good for her. It’s not nasty. If you don’t like it, then don’t look at her. You think she’s going to get grabbed and raped by someone? Well shit, teach the boys not to rape. Don’t expect the girl to cover up her whole body. We’re comfortable in what we wear. We shouldn’t live in fear for the rest of our lives if we run in spandex and sport bras.

It shouldn’t be that way.

SELFIE.

Yaaaaa.

I got weird looks from everyone but whatever.